If a body catch a body coming through the rye.

what am i doing everyday?
sitting in the front of my computer doing nothing.
i dont wanna talk with someone i know.
i dont even wanna see people i dont know.

natural?

i dont feel like living lately.
my grandma is about to die.
she has a malignant cancer on her bladder.
sadly,its too late for cure.
my parents have been talking about this with kinfolks for a week and they finally decided its better not to tell her.
i know she knows about herself more than anyone but was that right thing to do?
what if she wanted them to tell her the truth?
anyway,my grandma and i are bestfriends.
we talk a lot and laugh a lot together.
she was the very first person who told me that my photos were great.
from then i had been trying hard for it and now,my first encouragement is going to die.
what a sad thing.
i just dont understand.
why god takes lives of people who had made a great effort in their lives away and lets people who wasted their lives away live longer?

it is not fair.