Get busy living, or get busy dying.

i choose get busy living.

im trying.i want to improve myself,in everything.
i want to make my life valuable and meaningful.
a life which is a repetition of getting drunk and wandering in vain means nothing to me.

its easy to get drown in sea.
but id keep on struggling and crawling until my last breath.
thats how i wanna live and how i wanna die.
i can be more stonger.i can.

slow down,oh dont.

Ive just broken up with my boy again.
He doesnt call it "break up" but i do.
Long-distance relationship is not for me.
i simply think its not good to chain the lover.
i dont wanna bother him.
we broke up more than four times cuz we get back together when he come back.
its freaking me out and im going to end this really.



I love him.
whatever you say,i love him.
I know it sounds superficial and imprudent but its true.
Other guys are so boring and i cant find a meaning to be with.
They all bothers and bores me,madmen.

cheap cheap.

I dont like to be chased.
They mean nothing to me when they start to get interested in me and to talk to me a lot than ever before.
Thats the time i realize that theyre not what im looking for.
I dont wanna be chained or told what i should do.
It is my life and they are just a blink of it.

Both we and our words are over produced by influence.

We're not gonna take it
No, we ain't gonna take it
We're not gonna take it anymore

We've got the right to choose and
There ain't no way we'll lose it
This is our life, this is our song
We'll fight the powers that be just
Don't pick our destiny 'cause
You don't know us, you don't belong

We're not gonna take it
No, we ain't gonna take it
We're not gonna take it anymore

Oh you're so condescending
Your gall is never ending
We don't want nothin', not a thing from you
Your life is trite and jaded
Boring and confiscated
If that's your best, your best won't do


Twisted Sister:] they rockkkkk!!!!!
i feel better than last week.
but i still dont wanna talk with people.
its funny cuz im not in the conversation even im making them laugh.

Carelessness.

Carelessness something Ive read about
in a magazine in a Journal of
Medicine for fever and rapid heart
for the younger set giving life a start

All the pain in dissent
all the freedom to climb
A thousand wishes Ive missed
for hanging onto this

When a moment brings hope for everything
every time I walk away from this
Will the one who came to throw it all away
ever get to see the end of this?

Carelessness is something I recognize
when youre fast asleep and I'm in the right
Taking in everything you ignore
my abrasiveness and your angelcore

More minutes of life put away set aside
ever following things that I wont find

Wont you climb high
and shower some correction on me Dont dare disguise
your colorful predictions are clear


i love FAIR.theyre amazing and the most mind-easing band ever.
Aaron gives me a reason to believe.

Every minute is a range.

I dont know.
Whatever i say sounds cheap and every word they speak out sounds cruel.
I cant look them in the faces.
Im afraid.If theyre blaming me and pointing me and laughing at me.
trains smell horrible.I can feel them lying,talking shit of others,not caring others,smells of fur,leather,sluts and alcohol.
why are we so careless?
Why cant we think of sacrifices?
im pretty tired of it.


Jimmy says "Say whatever you want cause I can laugh it off".
Ive always wanted to be like him.
but I cant.I cant laugh it off.

If a body catch a body coming through the rye.

what am i doing everyday?
sitting in the front of my computer doing nothing.
i dont wanna talk with someone i know.
i dont even wanna see people i dont know.