Both we and our words are over produced by influence.

We're not gonna take it
No, we ain't gonna take it
We're not gonna take it anymore

We've got the right to choose and
There ain't no way we'll lose it
This is our life, this is our song
We'll fight the powers that be just
Don't pick our destiny 'cause
You don't know us, you don't belong

We're not gonna take it
No, we ain't gonna take it
We're not gonna take it anymore

Oh you're so condescending
Your gall is never ending
We don't want nothin', not a thing from you
Your life is trite and jaded
Boring and confiscated
If that's your best, your best won't do


Twisted Sister:] they rockkkkk!!!!!
i feel better than last week.
but i still dont wanna talk with people.
its funny cuz im not in the conversation even im making them laugh.

Carelessness.

Carelessness something Ive read about
in a magazine in a Journal of
Medicine for fever and rapid heart
for the younger set giving life a start

All the pain in dissent
all the freedom to climb
A thousand wishes Ive missed
for hanging onto this

When a moment brings hope for everything
every time I walk away from this
Will the one who came to throw it all away
ever get to see the end of this?

Carelessness is something I recognize
when youre fast asleep and I'm in the right
Taking in everything you ignore
my abrasiveness and your angelcore

More minutes of life put away set aside
ever following things that I wont find

Wont you climb high
and shower some correction on me Dont dare disguise
your colorful predictions are clear


i love FAIR.theyre amazing and the most mind-easing band ever.
Aaron gives me a reason to believe.

Every minute is a range.

I dont know.
Whatever i say sounds cheap and every word they speak out sounds cruel.
I cant look them in the faces.
Im afraid.If theyre blaming me and pointing me and laughing at me.
trains smell horrible.I can feel them lying,talking shit of others,not caring others,smells of fur,leather,sluts and alcohol.
why are we so careless?
Why cant we think of sacrifices?
im pretty tired of it.


Jimmy says "Say whatever you want cause I can laugh it off".
Ive always wanted to be like him.
but I cant.I cant laugh it off.

If a body catch a body coming through the rye.

what am i doing everyday?
sitting in the front of my computer doing nothing.
i dont wanna talk with someone i know.
i dont even wanna see people i dont know.

natural?

i dont feel like living lately.
my grandma is about to die.
she has a malignant cancer on her bladder.
sadly,its too late for cure.
my parents have been talking about this with kinfolks for a week and they finally decided its better not to tell her.
i know she knows about herself more than anyone but was that right thing to do?
what if she wanted them to tell her the truth?
anyway,my grandma and i are bestfriends.
we talk a lot and laugh a lot together.
she was the very first person who told me that my photos were great.
from then i had been trying hard for it and now,my first encouragement is going to die.
what a sad thing.
i just dont understand.
why god takes lives of people who had made a great effort in their lives away and lets people who wasted their lives away live longer?

it is not fair.

bother me.

today,i talked with a guy on msn.
i dont do it often cuz its waste of time and everytime i face to computer,thats the time i have something to search.
but i had time.so i talked.

he asked me whether i drink or not so i told him that i used to be an alcoholic and trying to be clean.
i think he took me as a slut or some kinda.
he said "you kick ass,lady you rule!!"
it DID NOT make me happy.
i was not trying to be addicted by myself,my will.
i just need sake to get over my dearest friends suicide bcuz im weak.
yes,im weak.i couldnt save her.i couldnt even reach out and say "its okay" to her.
the fear that the killer might be me.
scares me.kills real me.i started to drink a lot and try not to think of it.

does it make me look like a whore?hell no.

Control Freak

You lose control when you hold too tight,
And turn your head long enough to let it bite.
Cause faith left me staring at the ceiling through the night.
It's freaking me out.

And when I fell asleep, it plagued my dreams,
And 30 bits of glass had become my teeth.
They were breaking each and every time I tried to speak.
It's freaking me out.

You're freaking me out,
You're freaking me out.
And I keep running like a coward for the door,
But I'll never get out.
You're freaking me out.

You lose your mind if you lose control.
It makes you feel ashamed for the hearts you stole.
And now, your own heart's scared of an attack,
Cause you can't give them back.
You're stressing me out when you prove me wrong,
You're wearing me out cause I've slept so long.

You're freaking me out,
You're freaking me out.
And I keep running like a coward for the door,
But I'll never get out.
You're freaking me out.

Throw it all away,
I threw it all
And I threw it all away,
And the best part is not knowing just what I threw away.
I threw it all away.

You're freaking me out,
You're freaking me out.
And I keep running like a coward for the door,
But I'll never get out.
You're freaking me out.

You're freaking me out,
You're freaking me out.
But I keep running right back around for more,
Cause I'm in love with my doubt.
It's freaking me out.

youre freaking me out,mom.
i told you.you cant say im insane bcuz were all insane.